For a start, I'm struggling with college work. Pretty standard for anyone, but they have people to talk to and laugh about with. I don't, thanks to a myriad of mental disabilities (most notably Asperger's syndrome) which have caused me to be a complete social wreck and possibly a permanent one. It's also caused me to be a prolonged pessimist with a now-hopeless outlook on life. Frankly, it is impossible that I'll ever strike up a decent relationship with someone that has the same problems as me or is even slightly apologetic, and will also want to help me to cope with my disabilities.

I don't really know anymore.