Yeah, thats right, I'm raging against well drawn pixels. Let the off-topic replies with obscure anime characters and demotivational pictures begin...

Seriously though, I just can't believe myself. I can not believe that I've given a fuck (and good hard earned money) on stupid pixels on virtual characters. Maybe I'm just getting older or IDK actually getting a life for once but all these hats, weapons and other assorted crap that valve has spent so much time trying to convince us mean something just make me hate myself.

I've spent SOOO much time acquiring, negotiating and trading my life away and for what? So I can have the illusion that what I have some sort of status? Lately I've tried to justify it saying to myself well you know I've made some decent money off of it. But really, relative to the time put in, it really is just chump change compared to what I make in the real world.

Really as I sit here thinking about it I'm like FUCK you valve and steam and the rest of them for just creating this unreality. I mean really, they work their ass off to make us believe that clicking your mouse, moving your keyboard and spending money somehow makes us proficient, cool and a part of something of importance.

But at the end, none of the achievements or crap you have matters to anyone but you. Yeah, there's the occasional fawning over your stuff by some foreign kid or whatever but its not real. I mean you really aren't better than anyone else. You may be worth more, but that too could be an illusion.

I mean, I've thought about just outright buying the burning flames tc, with a houwar and a headcase just to complete my collection of stuff. 3-4k really isn't all that much to me, really it aint. Isn't like you can't get the value right back out if need be. I mean I guess when I start to try to explain it to others I realize how petty it is this whole trying to extract self esteem, admiration, meaning and purpose out an artificial environment is when trying to see this from an objective perspective

TL;DR version: Pixels are colorful, fun to look at and engage with but are ultimately a waste of time; especially if you try to use it as a substitute for self esteem, income or status.

PS: NO, you can't have all my stuff for free , I know they still have perceived value and thus like any rationale being,i will try to extract the most I can out of them when I get around to actually selling them.